The Five P's to Life-Long Change

1. Get into God's presence. Hebrews 11:16 (NIV) says, "He rewards those who earnestly seek him." Whether your preference is listening to worship music, meditating, or reading the Bible, take the time to get into God's presence. If you will feed your spirit when times are good, it will help you be strong when times are bad.

2. Pray for God's strength and guidance. Mark 11:24 (NIV) promises, "Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." Keep the communication line with God open. Share with him your concerns and fears. Declare in prayer that you know how powerful he is and in whose hands you place your human efforts.

3. Prepare your heart for a positive outcome. The Bible states, "Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed." (1 Peter 1:13 NIV) Visualize the desired outcome, then take action to prepare yourself in advance for his victory that is already at hand.

4. Be patient with yourself. Ecclesiastes 7:8 (NIV) teaches: "The end of a matter is better than its beginning, and patience is better than pride." God's work is accomplished in his good timing, and the good news is that the outcome won't be one nanosecond late. God's timing is perfect, so wait patiently for the end of the matter.

5. Persevere. Don't give up! Remember that "Perseverance must finish its work." (Jas 1:12 NIV) The outcome you desire could be days, hours, or only minutes away! Keep your eyes focused on the prize and never give up. In fact, as Winston Churchill once said, "Never, never, never give up."

Change is definitely not easy, but it is essential to our spiritual growth as Christians, and it is quite doable if we learn to sit in God's presence, pray, prepare ourselves, be patient with ourselves, and persevere. What opportunities for change invite action from you today? Will you take the first step in admitting the truth of needing to change and the second step in leaning on God, or will you say, "I don't want to change, and you can't make me!"

Found this on the net, makes alot of sense! ;D


Enabled all my posts already. Can see what I wrote like ONE MILLION years ago. ;D That's pretty embarrasing huh!

Okay, today was pretty much alright. The day started of with physics. Though everyone had not exactly adapted to the school day, but we all knew we had to pay attention, exams are so near. In fact, they have already started of. After that, we had E maths, teacher went through the paper, didn't pick on me this time. ;D Then it was oral presentation, a few couldn't present, but I don't blame them. Teachers are pretty unreasonable sometimes, it's so near the exam periods, and they still have oral presentations. Wow. It's really amazing how they managed to get through high school. I guess ethan tay really understands us, and know how we feel. He's the best. ;D


I got my answer.

Quote, 'If I were on my deathbed, I wouldn't say anything, but rather holding someone's hands. Someone special.'

Really makes alot of sense! ;D

Thanks Joshua. :D

I don't care what you might think about me!

Okay, today was super funny! Especially during tuition, we were laughing about the physics topic 24. The one where we had to use 3 fingers to show the convectional current and stuff! I laughed till I cried! Linda and I bought a packet of chips and seaweed, guess who paid huh! And then, we couldn't finish it, so we decided to share it with the guys in the class, chee kai, oliver, johnathan and Joshua. Generous indeed! I was overwhelmed by all the funny stuff today.

Church was enriching. I learnt a lot from the video Soon Kuan and Jessica showed the class. Some parts really touched my heart, I really appreciate the effort Soon Kuan and Jessica put into their lessons, despite their busy schedule, really inspiring what God can do in one's life. I also realised how much God did in order for us to be saved. He sent his ONLY son to the cross, to bear the burden of all our sins. Do we realise how much that means to God? Sometimes, I take for granted what I have in life. I really need to appreciate things that I have, and be more grateful.

I'm not thinking a lot today, but I have one question. What would you say when you're lying on your deathbed? Really serious question, I guess, my answer is not certain. I'm not even sure what I would say. I got to prepare in case my last day on earth is tomorrow, or even tonight. I guess I'll just have to answer this question another time. SOME ONE HELP!

I don't know what it is, that makes me feel like this!

But on the other side, the grass is greener!

Suddenly I see, this is what I wanna be!
Suddenly I see, why the hell it means so much to me.

When asked this question, 'what means the most to you', how would I answer it? There are various answers to this question. Many will speak of earthy desires, like an Ipod, branded clothes. Well, personally, I'm not sure what my answer would be. I guess friends mean a lot to me, also not forgetting my family. So which means the most to me?

Anyway, today was a horribly boring day. Woke up at around 8, then I went back to sleep till 10. I have been studying ever since, feeling really bored now. I seriously can't wait for mid-years to be over. I browsed through the 2004 year book just now; manage to find many people's face. Time really flies, I'm sec 3 now. In the book, Sheryan and Yifang were sec2s, and Liwei was a sec1, Eunice, sec3 and I could find Shuzk Meng in the book, first time spotting her in the book. All of them from the same section, just different times that we graduated; I guess band has really grown a lot. I'm amazed at my marvelous eye power. Pretty hard for me to believe, it's been so many years since kindergarden. I love kindergarden, the wonderful playtime. Now, there isn't even time for myself. All I do is to study and study, and perhaps, occasional short breaks, but after that it would be back to my books. I need a life man! I want band to start soon, then I can practice and resume my old life, the interesting one.

When band starts, I will perfect my vibrato, and I'll try out double tonguing, if that's alright, I'll try out triple tonguing. I will also coach the sec ones, and make sure their tone improves, and teach them new techniques, and teach them new pieces. I guess they might join the main band when that happens, and we can sight read Noah's Ark together. It's going to be tough and fast, but I'm going to do my best. I know that saxophone section can do it. And perhaps, for the next school event, we can do a saxophone ensemble, or a quartet, or something like that, to help the band raise funds for our overseas trip. But then again, I guess not. The section might not be ready for such wide exposure, and not ready to play in front of the school or something, but we will improve. I've realised how much solos help one to improve, tone-wise, attitude-wise and confidence-wise. These are all qualities of a good band member. Maybe, I'll join a band when I become older, like philharmonic youth winds, or mus'art. I guess these are all probabilities in life. Then perhaps, join SSO next time, if I decide to take music as a profession.
Well, God will lead the way.

Now I wish for the sky to be blue and the grass to be green. ;D
Why isn't the sky as blue as before?


To get a good tone.

Operate on the principle that inside every not-so-beautiful note there’s a beautiful note trying to get out. I want to figure out a way to get it out. Free that note!

Things that take the longest, start the soonest. Tone is a lifetime of work. Tone has a living soul without form.


Okay, today was pretty alright. Had English papers in the morning. Paper one was alright, I wrote about question one. Something about triumph, I wrote about SYF. I guess it's pretty out of point. Section two was horrible for me. I got the format wrong, okay la, minorly. Just mixed up the greeting and header. Anyway, English is over already. Shall not think about it anymore. I commit the rest of the papers into God's hands. I guess, I'll try my best, and God will do the rest. :D After that went to queenstown library to study with val, steph and kelley. Not exactly very productive for me. I kept thinking of other things. I guess have to really concentrate then I'll get things done.

Why isn't the sky green and the grass blue?

It's going to be the start of mid-years tomorrow. It's just too soon for me. To think that SYF was a few weeks back already and common test had ended months ago! I guess time really flies. Today was a pretty alright day. School in the morning, teachers were all cramping stuff into our very small little minds, and all the last minute teachings before mid-years. English was horrible, the teacher didn't even make herself clear about the format of the examinations tomorrow, in fact, she even got confused herself; don't know how she managed to become a teacher. Hard to believe! Life's really cruel. I just failed physic test by 1.5 marks and now, I'm going to fail the chemistry test as well. I really ought to put in more effort, but what is the appropriate amounts? I memorized the whole reactivity series, the solubility table, anions, cations, the 5 preparations of salts, the 4 different oxides, and I'm still going to fail the test. Guess I didn't try out any questions before hand to test my knowledge. I really got to buck up. I just handed in physics file today. I'm exactly 1 week and 2 days late. That's like super late. Now, I still have chemistry theory workbook to complete. I bet chemistry teacher won't even want to mark it anymore; it has been a week since. Life stinks for me la. I still have E Maths 8.2, that was like ONE MILLION years ago can! Oh, and Chinese file which was due recently. I'm so behind homework. I guess I should STOP procrastinating, and start showing actions.
Actions are louder than words.
Well, I guess God has shown me what life has in store for me now. I read the bible every night, and pray before meals, pretty big improvement. I thank God for making my life a Joy. I love you God! ;D

Jesus said that when you give food to the hungry, drink to the thirsty, and clothes to the naked, and when you visit the imprisoned, you're really doing all of those things directly for him: "Whenever you did it for any of my people, no matter how unimportant they seemed, you did it for me." (Matthew 25:40 CEV)

When you help the poor, you're looking into the face of God. And Jesus says: "Well done, good and faithful servant."

GOD HAS PLANS FOR MY LIFE!

What would I be doing 10 years time? This would be my topic of discussion today.Firstly, in 10 years time, I would 25 years old. When faced with this question, what would I be doing 10 years time, this led me to think of another similar question, what do I want to be when I grow up. I feel that there is no certainty of what life has in store for us at this young and immature age. But, I guess, we can plan our futures, and realise it as we grow older.

I have been a Christian since I was young, and I’ve recently read the book, called the purpose driven life. I have learnt many things from it about life. Well, God, never meant for us to live a mediocre, average life. We were designed for excellence and everyone of us was uniquely created. Instead of being one in a million, we are actually one in about five billion. There is nobody else like you.

The first principle of living above average is that everyone needs a great ambition. We need a dream. If we don't have a dream, we're drifting. When we stop dreaming, we start dying. When we stop setting goals, we stop growing. We've got to have something that we're pushing toward, a goal of excellence. As long as our horizon is expanding, we'll be an emotionally healthy human being. God made us for growth; He wants us to grow and stretch and develop. God has a purpose for our life, and our key to success is to discover that purpose and cooperate with it. God never intended for us to go through life with a half-hearted attitude, wondering what we're doing and where we're going. God wants us to have an ambition, a great one in fact. A life with no challenges and no goals can be summed up in one word, a bore.

We should live life to the fullest and be content with whatever the circumstance is. But this does not mean that we should not set any goals, rather, be happy even though our dreams and ambitions have not been fulfilled. Imagine if contentment were used as an excuse for laziness, who would ever feed the poor or worry about world hunger, equality and justice? And besides, no one would be able to get an education.

In conclusion, I feel that life must be led to the fullest, and in 10 years time, I will know what god’s plan for my life is. Lastly, I would like to end of with the quote, “live life without regrets”, enjoy every moment of your life, and never turn back or regret what you’ve done, as everything done has a purpose in God’s eyes.

This was my speech today. Pretty inspiring huh! Though it was pretty last minute, and short, but I really meant it, from the bottom my my heart. Yeah.


Today has been like some emotional rollercoaster for me, and this got me thinking a lot. I guess the sickness has brought me to another higher level of thinking. Okay, I need to stop guessing, I figure out the right answer, which would be? I guess my life is full of uncertainties. When asked to do a speech on the topic, 'What I would be like in 10 years in time?' I ponder, and think to myself. What is life exactly about? Why isn't anything certain in life? Is life a new beginning to reuniting with God, and being together with him, up there in heaven? What is life really about? Well, then again, I think to myself, would I like my life to be this way, full of struggles, procrastination? I guess no one has a perfect life, since Adam and Eve took the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil, and we can't blame them for it. Even now, we are faced with many temptations, simple ones count too. Example of one would be, food, TV, excessive use of computers, hand phones etc. I guess this isn't what life really is about. So what is life really about?

Well, then again, I guess we have to live life to the fullest yeah? Live life without another regrets, and enjoy every moment in life, be it sad, joyful, anguishing or anxious, this are all experiences we go through in life. Without them, life would be meaningless. These feelings are lessons learnt in life, and I guess we really have to go through them in order to attain a higher standard of thinking, and understanding. And this is also one of the many reasons why men have acquired for himself an IT-savvy world. IT speaking wise, it would be known to me as ERROR 999! I guess I've not adapted well to the IT world. Although there are many major benefits, there are also several disadvantages as well. I shall not mention them as most would be pretty evident in school, and obvious to the people reading this.
From today's experiences, I've learnt to be much more thankful to the many things I have in life. Thinking of the poor, the unfortunate, and of course, the sick, like me, I have to thank God for everything! My parents are also a great influence in my life, thank-you daddy and mummy! I love you guys. Thanks to my brothers for playing with me when I was young, loving me, giving me hope in life, and of course lowering my stress level. Thanks to all my friends, for being there when I needed support.

Clique
Val, thanks for being there to support me, whenever I needed help. Stephanie, I love studying with you, thanks! Celestine, thanks for taking really good care of me when I was sick, and also, thanks for encouraging me. Eunice, thanks for being my bitch partner, thanks for also being there when I needed help with homework, and my everyday problems. Michelle, thanks for believing in me, during my darkest periods. You never fail to amuse me don't you?

Class, 3G1
Thanks, for being there with me when I needed help! Love you! Twinkle, thanks for being there every morning, without fail to take attendance, and being responsible is really tough, but you've done a really good job. Thanks a lot, and keep up the good work yeah! Gracia, thanks for supporting me, and encouraging me whenever I fall. Linda, thanks for being a really good friend these few days, you were there to amaze with me with your funny jokes, I forgive you for what ever you've done before. Start anew as friends okay? ;D Xiangyi, thanks for being there to support me when I was feeling done, and also, thanks for being sensitive to my feelings. I really treasure you as a friend. Rachael, we've been pretty close this year, thanks for being there to help me save money, being thrifty, and thanks for all the help with schoolwork. Thanks also for being there to lighten my workload, and of course, my mind load about band and school. I'm really grateful. Kelley, thanks for being there for me, when I'm lost, confused. You were there to help me. Thanks a lot! Caryn, thanks for going home with me, the many times, entertaining me, and thanks for being part of our group of 4 ;D. Joyce, thanks for being my partner this few months, and thanks also for bearing with all my nonsense throughout the day yeah. Rossane, thanks, for being part of our group of 4, and thanks for the coco crunch! Huiwei, thanks for the food on certain days yeah! To the rest of 3G1, sorry, there's no personal note. But thanks, in every one little way. Even, the smallest of things can move a mountain in my life. No words can express the gratitude I have for you. Love you guys!

CGSSB
Thanks everyone! We got gold, because everyone put in the effort, and didn't give up at the last moment. To my dearest saxophone section, although I'm not some big shot in the band, but I can tell that you guys have put in a lot of effort and time into SYF. I love you. Liwei, thanks for being there when I had some really horrible personality. I have changed for the better. I'll really miss you when you step down. Visit us occasionally yeah! Yifang, thanks for being a wonderful SL for the last two years, really miss your constant singing. Sheryan, thanks for all the night talks, and spuring me on to be a better band member. And, also thanks for all the knowledge you imparted to me, all the wisdom! Thanks! Eunice leck, thanks for being a SL, and also, wishing me a happy birthday. Really miss you seniors loads, if you happen to read this, come back to visit us soon! ;D

Teachers
Thanks for being there for me. Although times for students may be difficult at times, and I know I'm not a perfect student, I guess I'll try my best from now on. Thanks for being patient with the class. ;D

Tuition Friends
Thanks everyone for making tuition look-forwardable to. Also thanks for making tuition enjoyable. Michelle, thanks for providing me with green pen every week without fail! And you're kind of my pillar of strength during tuition. Rock on yeah, and all the best for results. Linda, thanks for being there when I needed help for certain questions, lightening the atmosphere at tuition. Jane, thanks to, for making the atmosphere more serious when everyone was becoming distracted. Clarence, thanks also for lightening the atmosphere with your funny jokes. David, thanks to you too, for making tuition life a battle field! Li-en, thanks for the heart paper clip, and thanks for agreeing with me too! Joshua, thanks for the many late nights, encouraging me when I'm down, the many sms-es talking about various random stuff really amused me, and made my life more interesting. Thanks for making me think more also. Thanks also for letting me know what 'rawr' sounds like. And also thanks for the congratulation message, for SYF. Thanks for coming to SCH for the results too. These small little things you did really made my day. ;D

Church Members
Thanks everyone for being there for me. Just that little smile, would go a long way, it brings me hope and love. Melissa Mak, thanks for being there for me, when I needed support and encouragement and also, thanks for helping me with the 4 memory verses. Melissa Tay, thanks for doing the Indian thing with me, helped me to relax after a long week and also the clapping thing! Thanks for the songs also, really made my day! Leanne, thanks for all the cheering up and stuff, really love it when you're all bubbly and stuff. Soon Kuan and Jessica, thanks also for being great sunday school teachers. You really inspire me, and are a great couple, in the lord. Thanks alot!

Cousins, and family
Thanks for making me part of a big family. Though we don't meet really regularly, I can feel the care and concern for one another. Thanks so much for being there for me!

Thanks to everyone else, whom I have missed out, thanks for making my life joyful, in one little way or another, even just a simple smile makes my day GREAT. ;D
Thanks for reading my post, to you out there!


I've been sneezing non-stop for the whole day.

I recall, the last time I was like that, was last year. It was during band, I would sneeze and sneeze and cough and cough. Oh man, talking about band makes me remember how much I miss my saxophone! Havent seen it for like 2 whole weeks already. I guess it must be missing me too! ;D


I'M SICK!

Yesterday, went back with gracia, caryn, sarah and caryn's friend. Didnt really talk much, I guess I was already feeling sick already. I should have known. I even slept early, tossed and turned in bed, couldnt even swallow my own saliva properly. Gosh, this really sucks. I hate it when I'm sick, with all the pills and stuff, EWW!


Alright, today was pretty much okay, pretty slack in fact. We had mass run first thing in the morning. I ran, despite of my injury. Then after that had geography, free period because Karen Tan didn’t come to class. I watched 200 pound beauty with Melissa. After that was E Maths, by then, I was already using my second battery, and guess what? It was going flat too! Fortunately, I left my charger in school from yesterday. ;D lent it to many people too. After that was recess, went down with Rachael, surprisingly, I ate recess with Stephanie and Claudia too. SS, I collected the worksheets and passed it to him. That’s like my second task as a SS rep, pretty slack as compared with other subject reps. I didn’t really pay attention though. Anyway, A maths after that, BORING. Mr Lee couldn’t show the stuff on the projector. And we did questions on paper, I looked around me, and guess what? Almost everyone wasn’t paying attention. Joy. Went home with Gracia and Caryn after that! That’s my Friday.

Thinking of my future now, and I ask myself a lot of questions. Firstly, the world renowned question, “What do I want to be when I grow up?” When I was younger, like in kindergarden, I told my teachers that I want to grow up to be just like my mummy. After that, in primary 2, I was introduced to the topic money. Then I said I want to be just like my daddy! Then, I did very well at science in Primary 3, I said, I want to be a scientist when I grow up. In secondary one, I wanted to be some world renowned saxophonist. Now, I really don’t know what I want to be. I guess I’ve changed.

Looking back now, I would never want to be a teacher like my mum. Too much work, all the making papers and setting papers will make me go MAD! Secondly, I don’t want to be like my dad either, looking at how much he works, I guess it’s just not right choice for me. I don’t want to be a scientist either, my science isn’t very good now, and I’m not going to face test tubes and test tubes everyday. Lastly, although I’m pretty good at my saxophone now, I don’t want to be some saxophonist. I’m an amateur; I can’t even vibrato properly, not even talking about my horrible tonguing! I can only single tongue, I guess I really got to work harder and perfect my skills, and perhaps my last profession will work out.

So many factors to consider, which path do I take?


Change my heart O God!





Woah, I really need to let of steam now. Homework is piling up like nobody's business, Family is giving me lots of stress, Friends aren't really what they are. Times like this are really bad. I really wonder what is the cause of this. Firstly, homework, I've been procrastinating like really badly, I really ought to stop doing a homework in advance, and clear my doubts abouts topics I don't really understand. Secondly, family, Daddy, I really appreciate you yeah, stop asking anymore. And for matthew, Stop making me irritated yeah. Lastly, friends, this makes me think alot. I kinda miss my old clique alot. We really shared alot of pain, sufferings, joy, worries, etc, together, really miss those times. However now, I guess I ought to adapt to these new changes. Get used to it, michellina. I really need to set aside time for myself, studies, homework, reading the bible, socializing, having fun and stuff. PIORITIZE yeah.

Schedule for Today,
Study geography.
Schedule for Tomorrow,
Go to school, study physics in the afternoon
Schedule on Saturaday,
Wake up late, do homework in the afternoon, study history and social studies at night
Schedule on Sunday,
Church in the morning, Tuition in the afternoon, Revise Physics at night


"Suddenly I See"
Her face is a map of the world
Is a map of the world
You can see she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it
It makes you calm
She holds you captivated in her palm

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

I feel like walking the world
Like walking the world
You can hear she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white
Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember
What you heard
She likes to leave you hanging on her word

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

And she's taller than most
And she's looking at me
I can see her eyes looking from a page in a magazine
Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower
A big strong tower
She got the power to be
The power to give
The power to see

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

Love this song loads. Never knew I had this song till today. Rachael told me! Anyway. So today has been fine yeah! Lovely day. I've been using the adjective 'lovely' alot these few days. Not sure why too.

Anyway, school has been really horrible for me. I've so many late homework, and millions of teachers are picking on me. Some even doubt my identity. Sometimes i really wonder what i live for. They ask, is my name real. WTH la. I'm going to like ignore all stupid questions like this, from now on.

Life has been downriding for me.


Wow. I guess time has really been flying. Didnt exactly notice the time. This isnt very good yeah. SYF is over already. And i'm still behing with homework. I guess I really have not adapted to the change. I fell down again today during mass run. I really don't know what's going wrong with me. Anyway, today's phone call in the morning was really scary. shall not elaborate though. I really ought to catch up, but I guess I really ought to find my appropriate studying patner.

Life has been a breeze for me, the last few years of my life. Why is it changing so drastically now? Everybody's changing, but must everyone change so much? Maybe it's just me who is holding on to the past, not wanting to let it go, and not wanting to accept the new changes. Perhaps, it's not just me who is holding on to the past? I guess life really has to pass, day by day, month by month. Like Mr and Mrs Chua always says, "keep moving". Does it associate with our real life? Keep on moving, and never look back? I guess so. Many people are full of responsibilities now. I guess sec3 is the handing over year. Sometimes, I just wish for time to move slowly, or rather, stay at the same time, and stop moving, I guess it's just impossible. If time really stayed the same, how would we ever get to grow? Change on our immature ways, fulfill our dreams, aspirations? I guess that's pretty much why god give us time in the world.

There is a purpose for everything and God has a plan for everyone's life! Trust in him yeah! :D


I guess those 6 things weren't that weird. I shall try again with 6 other weirder things about me.

1. I used to have a favourite teacher and a teacher I was really fearful about in Primary school. Favourite teacher used to be Miss Ong. She was a very nice teacher, pity she left when I was Primary 5. I still sms her once in a while these few days. Oh, and the teacher I was really fearful about would be none other than Mdm tee. I used to score really badly for Higher Chinese last time, really badly. There was this once, I got 32 over 100. Gosh, those were the bad times man! I would 'run' away from her, or rather, when I see her, I would turn 180 degrees and walk away. I would even walk one big round around school to avoid her. Woah. Come to think of it now, I feel pretty foolish.

2. Sharon Jany used to be a really close friend in kinder garden and primary school. Now I'm not really close to her any more. But this is how we met. We took the same school bus to school, and there was this one time, she came up to me and bit my knee really hard, for like absolutely no particular reason. Then, I started crying like crazy. And from there on, we became the best of friends till like P4, where she transferred to Henry Park. Really, really miss her!

3. I used to be a prefect in primary school. Pretty hard to believe it now right? I'm like a good girl turned bad! But it's pretty fun being bad sometimes, I guess. I even used to be in the EXCO. But thinking back now, makes me feel joy in the things I've accomplish. Duties: RAISING THE FLAG! Canteen duties, class check duties. I love raising the flag, maybe I'm just talented, maybe not. I used to raise the flag really well! And it was the National Flag in fact. I even taught the next batch how to raise the flag. Haha, those were the days!

4. I used to be in Pottery Club in primary school, Teacher used to be Miss Ong, maybe that's why she used to be my favourite teacher. Pottery was really fun yeah! I have an own piece, maybe i'll take a picture of it and upload it. If I'm free. I guess not, mid-years are coming.

5. Last year, I used to play scissors paper stone in class. The split game. Really fun, like the clique used to split and join forces! Michelle, Valerie, Eunice, Stephanie and Celestine, we used to play together! Really miss those times that we had dance stuff, did homework together town together and stuff.

6. Lastly, when I was in primary school, I never imagined that I would end up in Crescent, really unbelievable. I really had like no aim when I was in primary school. Didn’t have any plans for myself back then. Now, everything has changed, drastically. I guess, ‘people change’ really applies in this context. I guess, last time; I was a wonderer, now; I have different paths to take, not knowing which path to take. I guess I got to really learn to trust God with my life.

Do not worry about tomorrow, tomorrow will worry about its self.


guess who's fault is this! lol.
anyway, here's the six weird things about me that I'm supposed to do. Basically, the person who's been "tagged" to do this has to write six weird things about herself, and then gets to pick another six people who will in turn get to do the same.

1. i had bronchities last year.
2. i love shopping! ;D
3. i used to love science when i was in primary school
4. I LOVE KINDERGARDEN, all the sand and water fun! ;D
5. i adore my life!
6. i sleep alone!

Oh well, shall not continue this cycle anymore! ;D


Read chapter of Joshua in church today. Coincedence la!
Anyway, I learnt alot. "Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, For the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." and "To love the Lord your God, to walk in his ways. To obey his commands, to hold fast to him and serve him with all your heart and soul".

Today was magnificent, and funny!

I started of the day with church. I actually forgot my breakfast, haha. Really amazing yeah! After that I had lunch with cousins, at china square. Charissa bought a new ipod yeah! 80 gb. After that had tuition, the first part of tuition was somewhat alright la. Michelle was trying to conserve her voice. Anyway, I wish all ELDDS members out there, the best! We all know that you’ve been putting in the sufficient effort, just push yourselves to the limits now, it’s the last lap already. I know that you guys can do it, have faith in yourselves yeah! Tuition was hilarious! We kept laughing at stupid pictures that linda drew. And linda had this crazy medicine drink, which supposedly smelt like lemon. I didn't even smell a hint of lemon! Joy! I actually did maths, like almost all the questions today. Big improvement, as compared with last week. Mr Tan had chem on the screen the whole time. Really wonder who was doing chem. I love the topic on preparation of salts. I'm pretty good at it. Ok, maybe not. Anyway, Linda kept blackmailing me with letters eh! And she called Mr Tan multiple times to complain, how childish is that man, Linda. Woah. Linda took lots of pretty dumb videos and photos. Anyway, I took cab home. ;D

Have to go so history essay now, alright, maybe later! :D


Woah. Today was pretty alright la. We had flag day. Pretty interesting :D


Wow. There are many things I can do with my parents, brothers not around. An example would be watching TV in peace and also doing homework. I really can’t get anything done with them around. Like now, I got everything in front of me. My pens, my tablet, and my foolscap pad. Crap. All I’ve accomplished would be my E math homework. I can only do math with them around. But I really ought to do the subjects I’m weaker at, such as humanities. I actually got 3 out of 25 for a geography test because I didn’t study. Now I really ask myself why, because I dedicated all my time earlier on to band? So I really ought to work harder now right? But Michellina can’t concentrate. This is bad man! Maybe I should go back to my room to study instead of in the middle of the living room. :D That’s a great idea la. Or I could go study before I come home to all the distractions. But I would have to find some new studying partner as I have everyday of the week free now. And this would cost me a lot of money man! All the studying trips with lunch! I guess it is sacrifice on my part. I’ll just have to prioritize my money better, and not take taxi home every Sunday yeah!

All the best to me
And to you guys out there ;D


life is really cruel sometimes.


Sometimes I really don’t get what life is about. Sometimes it’s joyful and happy! However, sometimes it’s full of anxiety, worry and even sadness. Why is life so unpredictable? I guess it is really because of many various different factors. School? Friends? What about family? I guess when the times come, we should be able to deal with such factors. Life isn’t exactly revolving around only one person, me. We should be able to adapt with such changes. Why make life so complicated, full of trials, different people. Wow. Sometimes I can’t help but wonder to myself why am I leading such a life? I really want to break free from this. Is life all about “I”, “Me”, and “Mine”? I guess not. So what is life about? I should really go continue the purpose living driven life. I feel purposeless. I REALLY GOT TO WAKE UP! I guess life is also about making mistakes, then learning from them. ;D

recap
Yesterday was a pretty alright day. Maybe not. I started of the morning with English, which was a really terrible subject to start of with, and Ms Hee scolded us for like nothing. Perhaps it was because we really deserve it? Then it was followed by Chinese. We had to write a composition. What happened in 2006 that influence me the most? I wrote about SYF, the amazing gold with honours and of course the journey towards it. I haven’t finished it yet though. Then it was recess. After that was like just as bad. But I’m lazy to blog about it!

Anyway. Today has been CRAZY! We started of with geography test. Pretty alright. Except for perhaps, the second question. After that had E Maths. We were introduced to a new programme installed. Now, the teacher will know what we are doing in class. Haha. But it was really cool la! After that was recess. Went down with Rachael for recess. She ate RICE. :D And i ate chicken rice. :D after that, what happened was UNDESCRIBLE! Ask Linda, she'll tell you. Yeah.


Today was pretty boring! ;D Infact super boring. History was like ZZZ! English was worst! Then followed by geography. Can anything get worser? At least there was recess. And after that was chinese test. I didnt even study. Didnt have the time. And moreover, i just found out about the test in the morning. Many of my classmates too! Then, CME. We had this really weird new teacher. Now i kinda miss Ms Yip. At the very least she's sarcastically entertaining. JOY. I got another new name to remember. And i cant even remember her name now. Crap. This is bad. After that was Physics. Oh man. How can my life get any worser. Oh. But i got really crappy at the end of the day. On the bus/MRT ride with kelley and celine. They love me.

What is life really about? Is it the start of a new beginning to death? How about birthdays? Are we celebrating our birthdays? Or is it because we are one year closer to death? So what is life really about? I still cant get the answer. Or perhaps it is about fulfilling what life has in store for us. But can life be only full of big dreams and aspirations? I guess it's really up to us to fulfill them.

Labels: i miss SYF

Oh. I just realised that i haven't been blogging for a long period of time. I decided to use standard english from now on so that my english will not suffer. As you all know, CGSSB's SYF was yesterday. It was splendid! We obtained a Gold. Not with honours though. But was pretty surprised already. I was expecting a silver. Till now, we're one of the 9 bands who got gold, out of 70+ bands. Wow. I'm pretty honoured. Many gold with honours band kinda slipped. And according to joshua, 6 out of 9 gold with honours band got silver this time. I guess the judges are really strict this time round. Oh, and so far there's only one GwH band, St.Pat. They must be like celebrating like crazy! Happy yeah! But i guess we are happy too. I still can remember yesterday...

"Band, number 38, Crescent Girls School, ... ... GOLD!" Everyone started jumping around, cheering, screaming, crying for joy! ;D We were really happy! We managed to maintain the gold.

We'll make this dream come true, for Mr and Mrs Chua, and soon you will realise, your effort will pay off. And if you lose your way, remember what we've done, remember we are one! :D Love this song LOADS!


decided to convert back to blogger. i dont know how to use xanga! some one help me! ;D anyway. tmr's the BIG DAY! cant believe it. so fast yeah. gosh. really hard to believe.

to all CGSSB members out there!
all the best tomorrow. do your best and shine like a STAR! ;D ok. that sounds really retarded. but yar! ;D

alright, i;m lazy to write anymore. till next time!


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:D kinda like/hate it now. i dont want syf to be over, yet at the same time, i want syf to be over.

i know our hard work will pay off at the end of the day. but somehow, i want to continue working hard for the something. oh man. this is getting ironic! gosh!


i'm gonna use xanga from now on. TILL I DECIDE TO COME BACK TO BLOGGER :D


gosh. today has been pretty unproductive. i shall go practice my sax now! gonna watch mr bean later :D

all the best for SYF. have faith in yourselves. i believe in the band. we'll do it. we'll bring back a gold! work hard from now on. two more days. i know you guys can do it :D


i really gotta believe.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHANIE :D
love ya loads. :D :D :D


yesterday's band prac was pretty productive. :D i managed to tune like one million times. and i played almost everything on time. gotta work harder on my da pacem. and now, sandra playing an octave lower for the section solo so i have to play louder. i really hope my tone will improve like one million times. :D anyway. i wanna list down what other things i have to do before SYF.

1. make sure section plays together especially during COMBINES :D
2. perfect all my running notes. even them out. and play together with all the other sections
3. work on bar 19, the soft parts. especially tunning.
4. work on bar 20, tune with sandra and mavis. [IMPT]
5. perfect crescendo at bars 3 and 9 of da pacem domine.
6. FEEL IT, SENSE IT.

from the phantom of the opera. my field of inspiration for syf :D
Night-time sharpens,
heightens each sensation . . .
Darkness stirs and
wakes imagination . . .
Silently the senses
abandon their defences . . .
Slowly, gently
night unfurls its splendour . . .
Grasp it, sense it -
tremulous and tender . . .
Turn your face away
from the garish light of day,
turn your thoughts away
from cold, unfeeling light -
and listen to
the music of the night . . .
Close your eyes
and surrender to your
darkest dreams!
Purge your thoughts
of the life
you knew before!
Close your eyes,let your spirit
start to soar!
And you'll live
as you've never
lived before . . .
Softly, deftly,
music shall surround you . . .
Feel it, hear it,
closing in around you . . .
Open up your mind,
let your fantasies unwind,
in this darkness which
you know you cannot fight -
the darkness of
the music of the night . . .
Let your mind
start a journey through a
strange new world!
Leave all thoughts
of the world
you knew before!
Let your soul
Take you where you
long to be !
Only then
can you belong
to me . . .
Floating, falling,
sweet intoxication!
Touch me, trust me
savour each sensation!
Let the dream begin,
let your darker side give in
to the power of the music that I write -
the power of the music of the night . . .

love this song man. :D i really hope i really play the syf piece will feeling and everything. in fact i hope every body will :D


ohoh. i must elaborate on band camp :D ok. maybe not. i'm tired. and my tablet's running out of batteryy....


oh. i went for the band camp that day. and guess what! i;m injured! :D love the life man. i just finished my cme career thingy. sucks man. gosh. there's band today. in fact everyday. gosh. i love the life man! so rushed and everything.

I'm so rushed off my feet (oh-oh)
Looking for Gorden street
So much I need to say
I'm sorry that its on her wedding day
Coz she's so right for me (oh-oh)
Her daddy disagrees
He's always hated me
Coz I never got a j-o-b
Coz she's mine
And I'm glad I crashed the wedding
Its better than regretting
I could have been a loser kid
And ran away and hid
But it's the best thing that I ever did.
Coz true love lasts forever
And now we're back together
As if he never met her
So looking back
I'm glad I crashed the wedding
The neighbours spread the word (damn)
My mom cried when she heard I stole my girl away
From everybody gathered there that day
And just in time
And I'm glad I crashed the wedding
Its better than regretting
I could have been a loser kid
And ran away and hid
But it's the best thing that I ever did.
Coz true love lasts forever
And now we're back together
As if he never met her
So looking back
I'm glad I crashed the wedding
So please stop being
Mad at me for taking her away, coz
Anyway she didn't want to stay.
So please believe me when I say
She's glad I crashed the wedding
Its better than regretting
The ring she got was lame
She couldn't take the pain
She didn't want a silly second name
Coz true love lasts forever,
And now we're back together
You might as well forget her
And walk away
She's glad I crashed the wedding
It's better than regretting... (it's better than regretting)
The ring she got was lame
She couldn't take the pain
She didn't want a silly second name (no no no no)
Coz true love lasts forever (true love lasts)
And now we're back together
You might as well forget her
And walk away
She's glad I crashed the wedding


man. this song's really old. but i still love it :D love the life man! i want today to last forever. CME rocks. ok maybe not. but i guess it's like the only slack subject we have. apart from PE, where we perspire and stuff. GROSS! :D :D love the life now.